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ordinary - as pisces memang kuat berangan.unpredictable. loving. very energetic (only when it comes to my interest!)matured than before.strict when having to proof practicality..a life with limited friends-not much to worry..which is good. Still pursuing for permanent status as a person..wanting to have ability to love and to get love-for and from everyone attached to me.

Thursday, September 30, 2004

A new beginning i guess..

Remember last Tuesday I grumbled about how miserable my life is, differ from my peers, have no possesion blah..blah..blah..??

The very next day, a 'miracle' turned up.

It's Wednesday, as usual pegi keje etc. And as usual , karen and I have to 'berlakon'. Since Karen is also having this 'insecure' feeling to stay working in this office, so, we have to discuss about whatever things we want to say to that cunning boss.

Empty office - affected my head too. And it seemed like a thousand year to get the clock to 5pm... Karen said she was sooo teringin wanted to visit ma maison, so I brought her home.

And there it was..my future in a brown envelope, lying on the merc boot. I was thrilled...and at the same time feeling scared that it might be another upset, but it wasn't. No it wasn't. It's what I've been waiting for..what i've been craving for...

'TAWARAN PERLANTIKAN TETAP SEBAGAI ARKITEK LANDSKAP'

At last.

Alhamdulillahhh...

Nothing can describe my feelings at that particular moment...but the best thing was to see my parents' face were both beaming with joy.

Karen gave me a 'new-friend' hug.

And biseses from mon cher.

Alhamdulillahh...*smile*

Intann : Yes. A new beginning. Perhaps i'm thru the first-phase of my life, maybe yes..maybe no. Always to remember, that your rezeki, jodoh dan ajal are in God's hands. And I do believe the path I'm walking now will lead me to all that..


Tuesday, September 28, 2004

What's with that girl..?Huhh..??

So..If she's so huge by the name of SITI NURHALLIZA, everyone should like her..? like that huh?

I came across today's newspaper headline saying that the police detained one lecturer guy or something for writing bad badddd email about her. (I've read the e-mail. So what..?) She want to detain me jugak ke for reading that e-mail?

That was the funniest and the dummiest thing I ever heard on the news.

To hell with her..or the press..or whatever about her.

Intann : Pegi pasar malam lagi bagus.


How can you mend a broken heart?

Mon cher and I went to my newlywed friend's house - somewhere in Setiawangsa. We watched movies, and chat over new life updates. And apart of feeling soooo happy meeting her and giggled over our teenage stories, deep down inside, I envied her.

Envy her of what? Err..probably because she's able to settle down at a very young-but-crucial age. Yes.. crucial for me, as I am 25 and have NOTHING..can't you seeeeee....????!

Hahah.. (Don't bother this Nida..) Actually I envy her for having such a simple-yet-complete life. A good job, both her and her hubby, a car, a nice living room, a TV to watch.. and after this looking for a house I suppose. Lucky them. She cooked us a nice and hot fried noodles, but we were toooo kenyang sebab we already ate something before we went there. (So, no issue mee tak sedap..OK??)

That visit was a huge wind to us...me and mon cher. Really. It gave us sense of motivation to struggle to achieve for a life like that and at the same time cut us real deep. But still..we have to admit that we are wayyyy too far from that. We still need to do a lot of thing...which I don't know WHERE or WHEN on earth we will find it.

At some point, we went blur...and had our conversation lingers in the dark.. The more we keep talking or discussing it, the more painful we get. Nak pulak there are mouths yang tak henti-henti tanya... "Korang ni bila nak kawin nih?"

The thing is.. do you know how PAINFUL it is when people kept on asking that question? Tambah lak when we tend to think ourselves as losers..with no job whatsoever. And looking at people who manage to settle down, is like watching a war movie. Where you can feel the bullet penetrates your body, then left us motionless and die without help.. But above all, we don't see those people as being cruel to us. No.. we really don't. We know their intention, they don't want us to wander around with this 'status' clinging until don't-know-when. But.. we need time. Although we ourselves don't need that time.. still we have to accept it and follow the step God has grant us.

Life is hard. Yes, I know. And I believe that one day we'll find the path. And if we look at the bright side, all the questions we take it as a doa for both of us. (Aminnnnnnnn.........!)

Intann : Wish us luck..


Embrace your FREEDOM.. it's all yours.

A niece visited us the other day, and I respect her guts. A lot.

She is skinny, pale-looking 18-year-old girl, but yet with strong heart I guess... She joined the ATMA this year, and in another 4 years to come, she will becoming a navy engineer. And she sacrifices her freedom and all the excitement of being a teenager for that.

Will I?

Before I ask y'all the big question, I would ask myself first. And we get a direct answer. NO!

No.. I wouldn't have enough guts to put myself in such situation where people make decisions for us. No, I wouldn't let people or anything to take my freedom from me. You might say I am selfish enough or gutless..or whatever, but that's all I have. This soul I'm having, though it's weak or whatever..it belongs to me. And it will be my very very precious possession God has ever granted me..

But I really respect this young girl. With all the colours in the world that awaits her, she chooses to devote herself to this crazy-disiplinary-world. Where she has to wake up at 4 in the morning running or jumping or simply being punished for one stupid mistake done by others in the team. Oh God.. will I ever have that kind of guts?

I pity her. But i know she is OK with her live for she never made any attempt to leave the place. Though she cursed a few officers for their harsh acts towards her, but still laughing when telling us how she made the seniors fell on the floor after she deliberately mopped their floor with extra detergent.

Her knuckles went black, and daily marching tanned her skin. Running with sandpacks is normal.. being yelled and curses..is her daily soup..She'a totally a new person now. Matured and more careful when talking. She's enjoying herself.. And she's positive about it. And she deserve a respect for that.

As for me.. not that I am gutless or what..it's just.. ain't MYSELF.

i can't stand people yelling, lagikan to urge me to tidy up my room whatsoever.. only my parents can do that. And i'll never let others to take that away from me. NEVER.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Perhaps love..

And finally it's FRIDAY..!

Karen and me dah blur..tak tau nak belakon ape lagi.. there's nothing to do here..accept this morning, I rushly have to complete ada sketch untuk entrance one housing development, which he (my boss) baru bagitau semalam pukul 5 petang, that he has the meeting today.. hiii...memang bengang betul..

We went for lunch together tadi.. awal gile sebab it was me yang kebuluran.. hehehe..

What's with title up there? oo...takde pape..it's just a song by John Denver and Placido Domingo which I really enjoy listening to up until now.. dah lama tak dengar..so I went on bukak that song repeatedly on way way to work this morning.. really nice song .. I like the words..and also the classical voice by monsieur Domingo fellas.. people said I'm kinda oldies type.. to hell with 'em. Better than listening to that stupid AF semua2 tu..hehehehehe....

Me?Oldies? Ermmm..Kind of.. (Yess! I admit that!) So.. I love listening to those with outstanding voice.. Name it..Russel Watson..Josh Groban..Domingo..Linda Ronstant.. hehe.. Actually banyak lagi yang I enjoy listening to.. almost every song yang best..dengar ajelah.. Color Me Badd? That's forever man...! Hahhaa..

Just want to share this lyrics with y'all... just tell me which one is YOU.. of how you define love..

Intann : Thanks mr bob for the 'search' song. Enjoy your weekend everybody!

PERHAPS LOVE..

Perhaps love is like a resting place
A shelter from the storm
It exists to give you comfort
It is there to keep you warm
And in those times of trouble
When you are most alone
The memory of love will bring you home..

Perhaps love is like a window
Perhaps an open door
It invites you to come closer
It wants to show you more
And even if you lose yourself
And dont know what to do
The memory of love will see you through...

Oh, love to some is like a cloud
To some as strong as steel
For some a way of living
For some a way to feel
And some say love is holding on
And some say letting go
And some say love is everything
And some say they dont know

Perhaps love is like the ocean
Full of conflict, full of change
Like a fire when its cold outside
Or thunder when it rains
If I should live forever
And all my dreams come true
My memories of love will be of you

Words and music by John Denver.


Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Another hectic weekend..

The gathering at Mr Khor's house went well. We had ourselves a large bowl of superb taiwan mee in Ampang point, and i became an anaconda again.. hehhe.

And later that evening, Aqil, my nephew was emitted in Ampang puteri .. a day after arween went home from the same hospital. Hahh.. I simply cannot believe the MO incharge that day simply said aqil was Ok... but he was panting and unable to breathe all the way to the hospital..! Aqil is also suffering from asthma, just like me and my sister. I felt like wanna whack-down that obvious-blur doctor who seemed like just got up from her sleep.. my sister lagilahh.. she was so furious.. "Anak orang sakit nih..buat main-main pulak.." she grunted. And i just remained silent..but inside of me..only God knows how..

We demanded to see the specialist who looked after Arween the other day. After settled down semua benda pasal ward etc, I headed back home. Arsenal met Bolton Wanderers that nite memang risau gila sebab bolton was having that certain 'vows' that they want to make sure Arsenal would lose to them...

And they had a crucial game. Henry and Pires scored.. and as so bolton. They held Arsenal for a 2-2 draw..but they played a really heart throbbing game... Allez arsenal..! hehehehe..

On Sunday.. mon cher arrived KL early in the morning and we headed to accompany kakak and aqil in the hospital. And then to Sunway Lagoon, again sebab this time Abang Akmal has this PROTON's family day.. Hahahahhaha..tiket free lagi..sapa tanakk..

Free breakfast and lunch. Hahh..haven...! Hehehhe..Mon cher and me went swimming for a while.. hujan lebat, plus ramai sangat manusia kat sana. After a few hours playing in the dry park etc..we headed back home. Penat gilee...

Hahhh..hectic.. but this time at least me and mon cher got some peaceful time of our own.. a day where have something to do together, instead of selalu nya sebelum ni wandering around in KL not knowing where to go or what to do... kan mon cher?

Hmm.. I have something to tell ya'all .. but since sekarang ni tengah 'suspen' takut my boss suddenly appear kat office.. so i better stop now.
hehehe.. see ya in the next posting!

Intann : Internet kat rumah rosak..kat office takut bos pulak.. isk.. penatlah macam niiiiii................

Please..I warn you..

I would like to warn ya'all..

DO NOT mention any word that sounds "Akademi Fantasia"..or AF one or two or whatever hell it is and also Siti Nurhaliza in front of me.. IF you don't want to hear me saying any sarcastic remarks..or simply being cynical about them.... hahahahaha...

Do not say I didn't warn you all hah...

hehehe..

Ok. This time nobody had ever mention any of those at me..but unfortunately, those gang were in the Sunway Lagoon as the family day presenter.. Thank God they were faraway from the pool we only realised their presence when we head to the amphiteater to look out for the lucky draw winners.. before mon cher and I reached the amphitheater, we heard ***** voices from the loudspeakers - and I suddenly stopped.

"Hah sudah ... tanak ah pegi situ abang!"

Mon cher laughed.. I frowned ..and feeling disgusted..

From the first time when my ex-class mate went out suruh watch that programme - I already felt that 'disgust' feeling out of me. Really. I don't know why I detest that particular 'benda' so much. Maybe sebab all the hosts from a radio station that I HATE the most.. I couldn't stand listening to their voices or whatever..lagikan nak tengok diorang tergedik-gedik buat lawak paling bodoh i've ever seen ON EARTH..!

I just couldn't understand the purpose of IT. Pastu tetiba jer nangis2 pulak.. Alerr... Come'on laa... (geli la cakap pasal nih..) seriusss...

Some answered me.. "alaa..saja suka2 tengok..."

As for me..it's err.... disgusting. Really. Don't know camana nak bagi exact word to describe 'them'. And I don't see anything yang best pun kat situ.. And the saddest thing is..semuanya Melayu..dengan bangganya potray their life untuk dikutuk..and whoever yang suggest benda ni.. hope he or she will live long enough to see all the youngsters being depraved.. I just tak bleh imagine how the future will be.. (Oh..please God.. protect my children...)

Lantaklah korang nak tengok.. and a few girls were running crazily towards the amphitheater ... and I felt like vomitting!

And before I could uttered other hatred-sarcastic words off my mouth, mon cher dragged me out from there...

"Hahh.. sudah-sudah lah tu..dapat dosa kering ajer dok ngutuk orang..balikk..!" And I just grinned...

Thank GOD..hehehehhehehehe.....

Friday, September 17, 2004

Back to routine again...

At least I have another 2 days nak rileks kan my mind. My boss will be in the office on Monday and already plenty of benda nak kena buat this coming saturday sunday. Agghhh..penatnye..!

Mr. Khor will be holding a gathering at his new house in Ampang Jaya. He seems excited to do this..he invites all the SAGA ex-staff so that we can sit together, get to know each other and of course they will be lots of stories pasal my boss to be laughed about that day. Charming idea huh? He knows a lot about my boss' cunning acts towards us and never stop warning us about him. Mr Khor also is the one covering us up whenever we went for interviews, or kantoi in anything we did in this past few months. Hahahhaa... and whenever he's hungry... or craving for something, he will definitely dragged all of us sekali. Makan FREE weh...sapa tak mauu..??

He already bought a carton of soft drink and a large pack of twisties for us. Huhh.. hancur angan2 diet aku. Tu belum lunch nye dish tu.. uskk..apa la yang dia nak beli... *think.. heheh..

That's Mr Khor. He's not working, or a retiree or whatever. He's just himself. Every month he just have to make sure his 11K will be in his account from all his tenants. Nampak macam senangnye hidup dia kan? Lepak jer.. But ..that's him. And I know I still work here sebab he's here to cover me up all the time. He's the one to tell me not to be scared to my boss because we are on the right side. Which is true..right? So don't ask where did i got the courage to ask my bos to increase my salary and went straight complaining about the EPF money he didn't pay me. Hahahah...

Can't wait to get my ass out of here!

Sunday - nak kena hantar my sis register new semester. Penatnye nak kena drive gi Cyber pulak pagi-pagi ahad. Ewahh..cuba kata nak jalan-jalan ngan boyfriend..hah.. subuh - subuh pun sanggup! Hehehehhe.. (memang lah!) ngeee...

..........................blink blink...............................blink blink........................(ughhh...!!!!)

Boringgg.........!!!

Kakak called- ajak jalan-jalan gi Ampang Point. Errr..ampang point?? hari-hari pegi sana sebab it's just 2 minutes away from arween's hospital. I simply agreed-because there's nothing to do here. Hhmmm..at least can go and give arween a big hug and kisses kan??

I opened the window wide to get some fresh air- and waited for 12 o'clock to come. Huuhhh..penatnye tunggu time jalan. Dah start pening nih! ..Help..what to do..???

Intann : Err... yeyeyy!! Esok mon cher datang lagi! hehehehhee....

Arween...au l'hopital..

Arween is now in Ampang Putri. Pity her.. She was happily dancing and jumping on her parents bed the other night. But before I can grab her down, she slipped off the bed and hit hard on the floor (thank God it was carpeted).. at first we thought she was ok..but after several hours she went vomiting and acting unusual.. abang and kak nurul were both really worried. So mama and abah had to rushed her to the hospital and she is still warded up until now. But the doctor said she is OK so far, and concluded she had been vomiting because of the asthma. Hmm.... (who am I to doubt that??)

Everyone have to take turn having to accompany her. Pening sebab everyone's working and have to plan accordingly sebab she only wants her mom to accompany her all the time. The first day she was so serious, frowned, with very minimum movement. Demam pulak tu.. Sian dia.. dah la kecik..petite but bulat semacam ajer.. hehehhe...

But, yesterday she seemed brighter than the other day and we can hear her laugh and play all around again...and she got her abah and maksu also off their feet trying to kutip and hambat dia... Hahhahhahha! Padan muka.

"Penat gilaa dok kutip dia...dia mana nak duduk diam-diam atas katil!" Abang grumbled.. sambil garu kepala..and endless sighs from his mouth.

"Chehhh!! Banyak la dia yang kutip.. dia dok tidoq jaa....pastu paksa orang kutip aween!" my sis pulak went complaining pasal my bro. Hahhaahaa.... Elok la hampa dua orang...

Hopefully she can be discharged by today sebab semua orang seems to be exhausted sangat- sangat berulang dari rumah gi spital. And last night everyone went flat. Drop dead-terbungkang merata-rata. Including ME...Hehe..

Intann : Get well soon my princess! Achik adores YOU! Muuahhhhhhhh!!

Thursday, September 16, 2004

I'm back!

Friends from everywhere have been asking me 'bout the trip to Thailand.. Phuket I mean.. and I would say my first expression about the place is..a food heaven! Guess what?? I put up one-and-a-half kgs during my 3 nights stay-which was awesome! Hahahaa..

Ok. let me start from the beginning. But i would like to jot down something about my 'bumpy rides' boarding the Air Asia on my way to phuket. Waaaa.. I dunno how to describe it.. but I can hear err.. 'the machine' joints was cracking or something..hehe..errghh.. I couldn't dare to look outside! it was a total horror you see! I kept on asking, what if we couldnt make it..? ughhh..just imagine that...!

That was surely not my first time on the plane. But this time got me shaking all out of me. Really. The thing is, knowing that this Air Asia company started their business operating 'second hand' crafts- made me wonder wayyyy to much about the condition...as well as ME being carried away by a documentary I once watched sometime this year about plane crash! By looking at it (the craft) - was soooo obvious .. but to be in it... hah!! (sigh).

Ok...enough bout me scared of falling. Hehehe..After an hour feeling so close to faint, we finally arrived at the Phuket International Airport. We've been told that our hotel would take another 40 minutes by road- and there i went craving for a good bath. Not everybody there speaks English-and there we go.. blurred with the signs and curly-words- it was totally aliens! Thank God the driver speaks a lil' English.. though we sometimes couldn't get what he was mumbling around.. at least we had a DAMN GOOOOOOD lunch that afternoon... Chicken Fried Rice and other Thai hot and spicy dishes.. hahahaha....

I would say that Phuket is suprisingly hilly. To get to Phuket Town, which was again ..surprisingly quite a large city.., we have to across quite a long and winding road. I couldn't even turn left or right or else I would vomit inside out! The dizzy-feeling was beyond words. But after 30 minutes with warm-fuzzy-feelin', we reached Patong Beach, and another 10 minute to my hotel - which is in Karon Beach, I sat there spellbounded to see the ocean in front me.. speechless.. the emerald blue sea was so calm and fascinating.. "Wow..!".. " So..this is it.." Finally got myself there.

And yes. Phuket is wayyy different with Bali. There, it's more like my dad's hometown; Langkawi and i felt like belonged to the place. And there goes another tourist - got herself captivated by the scenes in front of her. Haaa.. (sigh)

Yes. The sea was awesome. It has its own character that will instantly melt us.. and of all the sudden, I've forgotten all the fatigueness I had on the flight. My hotel, Phuket Ocean Resort was excellent I would say..and it was sooo huge. The first time I got there, felt like i was in Rome or something...mainly because of the hotel's design ; terraced, shady, and every room with a balcony overlooking the ocean. Breathtaking.

Our days were filled with shopping, strolling on the beach.. some swimming.. but again.. the food was so damn good!! we can't help having ourselves indulged in every dish they served us. Even a simple soup was opulent with seafood! Who can resist that???

And there was a stall selling hot-fried chicken with sticky rice. It sound weird to me at first, but as soon as they got into my mouth-I begged my dad to get them packed for dinner also! Hahaha... and there I went eating like crazy. My mom continuosly warned to watch my diet- but my dad was soooo generous .. letting me and my sis ate as much as we like!

And at night, I became an anaconda..... dozed off to sleep in split seconds! Hahhahaha... and again.. the 'fried chicken' filled my dreams... hahahahaha..

Every single thing on the land was so interesting. The people were funny, with weird-accent language. Although I sometimes do watch Thai dramas at home, but to hear them spoke to me 'live', was rather funny. Even the signboards was funny. There goes the hospital sign --> a bed.

My sister and I went in and out souvenirs shops which sells t-shirts etc. Apparent porn-creative minded peeps, they went selling t-shirts with funny porn cartoons on it. There goes 'Superman' logo and wordings being changed to 'Sperman'.. 'Mastercard ' to 'Masturbate'..and many more..and we went laughing all the way in and out...

And once, at a flee market, a lady came up and said something alien to me. I was stunned! I went "aaa......eeerrr.........aaaa................." Blurred and speechless. They laughed at me. And I laughed back.. Hahahahhahaha.... Happy people..though they're just selling dried fish.. still got happy friends and life.. Guess I should be thankful huh??


Last minute shopping was even more interesting! I bought a sandal ala the 'Tropicana Life' for only ten baht, equal to 1 Ringgit malaysia. The frenzy went on and on.. even my mum was sooo crazy 'bout it! And we went taking advantage of it..!

"Ma.. can i have this?" I begged for another sport shoes.."And this..?" and another..and another.... and the list went on..

Hahahahha....

We missed the match between arsenal and fulham as there was no ESPN channel, but enough with henman and federer game as well as hewitt vs federer in the US Open final. So hard to understand what the hell they were saying, both on TV or with the peeps.. but everything went very well until our last day there.

Really worth going- i would reccommend all of you to visit Phuket. Not so many tourist, no traffic jams, the food was great... transportions may be a bit expensive( if you don't bargain) , they have 'tuk tuk' - a small lorry cum taxi which they decorate it very nicely, and you can save even more if you ask me first bout where to go.. hehehehe..

Enough with the stories. Go there by yourselves. They have spas and lots of massage spot all over the place..


Intann : And here I am.. Have to get back on the treadmill... wish me luck guys! Hehehe...


Saturday, September 11, 2004

Bonne journeeeee

Hahahha...

Finally...Saturdayyy...!! Yeyeyyyy....
Bye guys..Nak holidayy..hehehhehehe...

I'm off to Phuket. Nak rileks.. Hehehe.. Nak enjoy this trip sepuas hati sebab this will probably be my last FREE trip sebelum kawin. Spas ni sapa nak sponsor lagi..?? Kena kuarkan duit sendiri.. hehehehe...

So.. tataaaaaaaaaaaa....................!!

Intann : Yang best tu.. balik dari phuket, keje dua minggu - pastu RESIGN.... hehhheheeh...bestnye..

Friday, September 10, 2004

Hahhh..holidayy..

Nape lah sabtu lambat sangat..?

Dah tensen nih nak cuti.. mende intenet kat opis lak buat pangai..kena lak online kat umah..dah ler sadis gila nak tunggu connect dial-up. Hehehe..tengahari nih nak jumpa mon cher.. nak jalan2 sebelum dia balik Terengganu. Pas nih dia nak masuk semester baru..so jumpa lah kejap.. plus dah nak gi jalan2 nih.. takleh nak call hari2 macam selalu.. mesti pening...hehhehe...

So..today..Karen will be left alone..setengah hari ajer.. takpelah... hehhe..jahat betull.. dah lah nak amik cuti 3 hari nanti..dia mesti jem punye lahh.. hehehe...

Intann : Mon cher sampai kul 12 setengah kot..dapat bas lambat. Hmm.. nak pegi mana aaa jalan2..??


Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Radio addict.. let dance bebeh!!

Mon cher has his final presentation this morning. He called me just now grunting 'bout his group member went playing around and they had a tough time completing the project...Huh.. pity him.. he's been staying up since last night.. and planning to sleep right after the presentation..

So with my sis.. also having her industrial training presentation at 11 this morning. Haa..best of luck you guys!

Karen and me dah plan nak pegi Ampang Point after this. Nampak sangat takde keje + malas nak buat keje.. we are chatting though dok sebelah ajer.. hehhehehehe.... gatal..!

What to do ah after this..??

Intann : Pires' song on the radio! 'What's luv' from Ashanti.. got me dancing ! Hahahahahhaa....

Italy..? Oh..not again...

We went for steak @ mama chop papa grill last night to celebrate my sis' birthday.. the dish..? errmm..average..i would say. Sebab there's another steak house nearby yang offer good steaks and sandwiches with cheaper price! and lagi banyak grrravvvyyy..of course!! Hehehhe... hungry ah??

What's with Italy..? Ermm..
.................................................. (blink blink...)

A chat friend popped-up an 'Italy-plan' yesterday and suddenly I was dragged into dreaming again.. Err..or i shouldn't say a 'dream'-coz it wasnt really a dream actually... but errr...AGAIN...??

Really don't want to talk 'bout this now..or ever.. enough with the 'zappy -current-feeling' that struck me once the word 'Italy' appeared on the screen yesterday... Hahh.. (sigh)

I remember once where I used to listen this song.. every single day and feeling' so calm and quite.. as if..erm..as if...nevermind..

Whoever ..whenever.. cherish ur life!

Cinema paradiso ~
Se (If)

Se tu fossi nei
miei occhi per un giorno
Vedresti la bellezza che
piena d’allegria
Io trovo dentro gli occhi tuoi
E nearo se magia o lealta
Se tu fossi nel mio cuore per un giorno
Potreste avere un’idea
Di cio che sento io
Quando m’abbracci forte a te
E petto a petto, noi
Respiriamo insieme

Protagonista del tuo amor
Non so se sia magia
O lealta
Se tu fossi nella mia anima un giorno
Sapresti cosa sono in me
Che m’innamorai
Da quell’istante insieme a te
E cio che provo e
Solamente amore...

A really nice-heart-sweeping song - that's all I can tell.

Intann : What ever it is..it will always be the best ever time in my life!

Testing

Dunno why cannot publish this time. M'aider..! M'aider!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

A birthday of..sis cum friend..

My sis turns 21 today. Apart from being a sister to me, she's been my closest accompany since..uhh..since bile hah? Since we lived in Seremban i guess. Before that? Heheheh..who wants to befriend with a budak primary school? Hahahhaa..

I already got her a FILA bag for her birthday kat Sunway hari tu. So now I remember why I kinda broke cepat sangat last month! Heheheh..

Whoever knows my sister will agree if I say that she a cool-cold-silent girl..Huhh..serius... She can be very cold at times, but don't get her into bumpy mood-you'll be in BIG trouble. Hahaha..

She likes football and tennis-same as me of course! Or else camana nak stick together like friends? While I was jumping to see Pires on the pitch, she's already feelin' wanna terkam the Arsenal stylo-hunk Thierry Henry for scoring. She's into tough-macho guys like Marat Safin, Carlos Moya and that Henry of course, but what happen to that brief's model Ljungberg huh?? Hahahhahahahahha... Dunno where's the toughest part! All I see is his jinking and fumble run all over the field..making people's life miserable for tackling him! Hahahhaa..

And don't really care when she always making fun of me for being soooo attracted towards skinny-and-tall actors and sportsmen.. Name it.. Robert Pires, Tim Henman, Jude Law, Maldini.. And the list goes on.. Hahhahahahaha... Suka ati aku ahh!!

"Abang..?! Birthday orang nanti bagi DVD player dah la!" She asked my bro once we were in his house.

"Haarrrraaaaammm.....!! Last year nak handphone..this year DVD!" He grunted; but we end up laughing.

"Amik hang..dapat free seranah seround.." I added..

And I know she'll definitely gonna get it..Sooner or later. Coz she knows well everybody in the family- Huhh... she's the youngest bud... who else..?

Intann : Welcome to the oldies club sis! Hahahhaa...make sure you don't miss all the FUN!!

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Irresponsible or simply EGO?

Its Saturday and I had a good time with my tosey this morning... I was planning to get my self a goooddddddddd rest today and tomorrow, but on our way back from Bukit Indah, my aunt who lives nearby said she was on her way to chez moi. So..bubbyee sleep...

So..as soon as we reached home.. kena start masak terus.. and the guests makin banyak as noon came.

And there goes again-endless topics about MAN.

I dunno why this topic seems to bug my family these days; probably there's certain season geng2 ni nak create stories so that people will go on talking 'bout them. Apparently, I tried to runaway from each issue that is being discussed..but I couldn't help myself from hearing it. Then there goes words like;

"Haaa..dengar tu Intann!" and everyone's eyes were on me.. Alaaa..ni yang boring nih..last2 mesti aku jugak yang kena.

I guess y'all mesti tak faham what i've been ngarut around. Okey.. Actually me myself pun pening ngan menda2 nih..sebab it suppose takde kena mengena pun with me... but two of my closest cousins came with 2 contradict problems. One cousin, is married with four children, and another one is still looking for a right person to marry..

My first cousin, Kak T came just now, sobbing when telling my mum what's happening to her since she took an unpaid leave from the bank, and started a new massage and aromatheraphy business on her own.

She said, all she needs is an encouragement from her husband; and nothing more.

But as all of us know how weird her husband is.. we were all ..err.. could only listen to everything she said. Once, she said, her husband left her in the middle of nowhere just because they couldn't find a place-the husband simply drove away.. before she could even close the car door back.

That sounds sadistic to me..

And they fought so many times when it comes to money, when he claimed that she already has her own salary and she would take care about a lot of things in the house... and the stories went on and on... oh no.. isn't that sound mean to you guys?..? I mean.. when it come to negotiation of anything in the house.. for me... it's the man who's suppose to be in charge, but he is also to remember, what are his responsibilities as leader and also the so called 'provider' in the house. I suppose he should realise that the wife is helping him-and shouldn't he be thankful?? Or is that his words of THANK YOUs...??

OK. If I go on talking about their problems-you'll dozed off. I bet. The thing is now, why is that a man would go angry when we say that they are not paying attention or just irresponsible, but boast around to say that they have their own pride and egos in themselves. I mean..what's the difference?

As for me, like I once before said, a MAN to me is someone to be respected. Name it; a friend or anyone older or younger than me, if he has what it takes to be respected, he'll surely to have my respect, or else I'll leave him boasting around with his egos.

I remember couple of months ago, I went to watch Norwich City playing in Bukit Jalil, but we need one more ticket for my sis. So, I accompanied my sis to queue while my brother went to accompany my sis in law to the dunno-where-and-eerie-toilet. About 5 minutes queuing, we already went close to the counter although the line seemed to be endless at first. But, then, came 2-3 guys from left, pat on my sis' shoulder, and asked her to buy them the tickets. Wahh..a very clear act to cut the queue.

"Dik..bley tolong beli tak tiket...5 jer?" he handed my sister the money. My sis hesitated. Probably dunno how to answer or react. Maybe because I was standing behind her and hoping others at the back won't get pissed off, she finally took the money.

But then, came another guy, in his mid 40's..pat on me, and handed me another 30 ringgit.
And I was suddenly had my anger on top of me. Simply dunno how to describe my feelings..

I stood still. I took one glance on his his face and went saying;

"Beratur la encik, bukannya lama sangat pun. 5 minit ajer."

"Alaa..panjang la.. dah lambat ni.." dengan muka kerang busuk dia jawab. Huhh..dare to answer me lagi tu! Memang a big loser lah mamat nih!

"Kami beratur tadi pun panjang macam tu jugak..bukannya lama sangat pun.." I suddenly got the courage to get him back.

"Takkan suruh pompuan beli kot..tak malu ke..? " this time I got laser. Hehehe...


And the words inside me was even more sadistic ; I was about to say " Hahh.. ***** ada nak buat apa..? Elok encik balik .. amik your ***** ..buat FRAME!! Tak malu betul.. lagi nak suruh perempuan buat..mana PRIDE ah? letak kat mana? lutut??!"

I was really pissed off.. seriuss..!...! Dah lama I tak rasa marah macam tu... I simply buat tatau ajer ngan mamat tu.. (does he deserve to be called mamat? Looks like dah ada 4-6 children!).. so he handed my sis the money. Still.. memang tak malu.

When we headed out of there, they were waiting..dengan muka selamba kataknye amik tiket from my sis.... And he went saying to the other 'tak malu' guy;

"Oooohh..dia takleh beli...." As if to ridicule me. I wasn't feeling anything. To hell with him..!My mood to watch the matched was blowed off. He was the one who should feel ashamed of himself..but sadly, he did not. You think this guy aa, if he has a son or other children, will he teach or potray a good attitude or respect towards women..?? Naaahhhhhhh..!!! Don't even dream of it..

What I don't understand is; what was he thinking? What was in his mind? Somebody please answer me..

If that's the attitude, I won't be surprise if one day I met his son and encounter the same incident; annoying and really put me off. I don't know if you think i'm a bit carried away with that small incident-but for me; it's unacceptable!

Those kind of people i believe to always look down on women, banyak cakap laa..bawak kereta lembab la.. incomparable dengan men la.. so..? If you're so GOOD, takkan 5 minute queue pun takleh kot encikk....? And I bet he's the type of men with millions of alasan to escape to cover his own ass...and worst thing worst..asking women to feed them!..or in a simple and easy to understand words ----> takleh harap. END OF STORY!

Hehehhee... (sorry..memang I'm a bit carried away...) takleh lah ungkit isu nih..sensitif! Heheheh..

The thing is, I don't crave for anybody or everybody to highly noble me.. In fact i don't need it. Let's just be fair towards each other. And I know if each of us knows the true meaning of respect, love, tolerate, and other good deeds, we will end up having good feeling towards each other. And I do trust that.

Intann : Guys.. please.. be good... I was born to see every man surrounding me as a hero, and now.. you guys are ruining it.





Friday, September 03, 2004

Take it or leave it!

Remember yesterday I told you 'bout the BIG thing I wanted to do?

Just now, I finally said what i need to say. And I had fun looking at my boss' stunned-boiling-eyes! Hahahhaa....

No. Actually this is what i've been yearning for. He's playing with words and gave me thousands reasoning of why he pay me with a very minimum salary. At first I was OK with that since I knew I had so much to learn. But since this new staff joined us, he urged me to make sure she will be taught about everything, and I (who else is here?) will be the sole teacher. Hahhh! And she will be paid more than mine. Ewaaahhh....Once I knew that, there goes the idea of urging him to pay me more.. or I'll definitely will leave. Of course la... gila ape nak tunggu orang make fool of us.. Mulalah idea2 tak best campur sikit-sikit seranah..plus geng2 evil inside of me start main peranan.. Hahh..apa lagi.. heheheh...

So I gave him my final words-give me the amount I want- or bye bye.

He's leaving for China tomorrow morning. And I'm sure he'll have something 'extra' to ponder of. Hahahhaa....


Intann : Hate people yang suka take advantage of people... sadly..a lot of 'em is around!

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Karen.

I finally have a colleague..! Heheheheh..

I'm still on my way to get to know her well...and we seems to have millions of topics to say so far..And her name is KAREN. Don't ask me anything now.. lom habis berkenalan lagi maaa....

She's the one with endless smile on her face.. and I think I like having her as accompany. And suddenly the time moves sooooooooooooooo fast!

Hahh..I have a REAL BIG THING to do tomorrow. Hahahah...

I really have to make this MOVE - mintak naik gaji..or I'll resign. Wish me luck guys!


Intann : Sometimes in live..we must have this lil' courage inside us..

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

There you are - Martina McBride

Say I'm jiwang or whatever.. but this song got me into tears at the end of a movie played by Natalie Portman, called 'Where the heart is' - a few months back.

A friend, Fizzie, called me the other day with her new-love-life-update. She ditched a guy she recently told me to be her final Mr Right - and now, that poor guy, according to her, not reliable enough and don't have a certain QUALITY to best match her.

I was speechless.. I mean.. who am I to judge people to have or not to have this certain quality and then suka-suka ditched him or her as if we are soooo perfect. I dunno 'bout her.. but for me.. she's way tooo harsh with that decision.

Okey..I admit that conversation caught my attention at first- but the thing is.. I would assume that she's practically referring to PHYSICAL and ECONOMICAL quality here. She's daring, with flawless skin and yes, beautiful. But she's always complaining that whoever guys who would want to date her is merely an ordinary one.. the best would be an engineer. But still got kicked by her. Really dunno what she's aiming for.. but she will keep on finding a guy with that QUALITY.. huhh.. what huh?

"Boring la... penakut semacam la pulak aku tengok!"

"Penakut camananyee...??" I got confused.

"Tah.. nak suruh tanya org direction pun hesitate. Last2 aku gak yang tanya. Pantang betul aku orang tak genlemen nih!"

"Laa.. tu ajer..? Ko ni.. man-man ahh...abih tu..nak ikot cakap ko ajer..kang orang panggil ko queen control, marah!"

"Segan ko tau tak..? Ada boyfriend..tapi kiri kanan orang tengok kita yang peranan macam jantan..Baik aku ajer yang jadi dia..dia jadi aku! dok sengih-sengih.. hii.."

"Abihh..dah semua dia nak buattt...kang mati dia ..ko jugak jadi janda.! Padan muka!" I laughed.. kerek giler minah nih.

"Hahh..lagi baik takde boyfriend..hiii...memang pantang aku orang laki macam tu.. dia tak segan kat diri dia sendiri ke..? Hah? "

"Hmmm....ntahh..ko tanya la dia sendiri..."

Malas nak layan orang dah bad mood nih..

At the end of the conversation- i said to her.. "Go and find a friend la..companionship..or you'll be known to have a bad track in relationship..lagi susah! "

Tatau apa nak komen. Yelaa.. I understand that women memang prone to find a guy with quality..anything which suits them.. and it's quite impossible to find a perfect one. Ada tu ada..tapi dah jadi laki orang lah..te yak?

As I once said before.. I need a MAN.. and a man should know by himself of what quality he should have and live sincerely with it. Not to potray someone he is not - just to get us fall for him.

As for me.. I don't look on physical and his purse at the first place..but his effort will do.. effort in everything!

It's hard to talk pasal love and relationship ni.. sebab we don't what going to happen in the future..betul tak..? But deep down I pray.. that me and mon cher will remain as OURSELVES.. and will get better and better each day..

Kan mon cher? Hehehehehe....

This song is for you..
Martina McBride - There You Are

There you are,
in the early light of day,
There you are, in the quiet words I pray,
I've been blessed by the simple happiness,
Of the perfect love we've made.

Chorus
Every time I turn around,
when I'm lost and when I'm found,
Like an angel standing guard,
there you are,

Every time I take a breath,
and when I forget to breathe,
You're watching over me,
there you are,

When I'm looking for the light,
in the middle of the night,
Searching for the brightest star,
there you are.

There you are,
standing in a crowded room,
There you are,
the earth and I'm the moon,
My desire,
is to stand by the fire,
That burns inside of you.

When I'm looking for the light,
in the middle of the night,
Searching for the brightest star,
there you are,
There you are,
there you are.

Intann : Let us be ourselves.