Boring...

Huhh..boringnyeeee....

I'm sittin' in front of this notebook-*wink wink..* and my fingers are not moving..for about 10 minutes.

My brain's empty. Uhhh..what is happening to me..?

So.. next Monday will be my first day at work. Yes..work. That one i consider a 'work'. Not the other one yang got me blurred for nearly 6 months! And in 3 days to come, will be Ramadhan. I am not sure myself whether I am ready mentally and physically for this year's fasting month. Not that I am tak puasa laa...it's just ME wanting to sincerely doing it.. I don't know.. err.. i really not into talking about this now.. sebab tengah blur nih..

And outside is raining. Heavily. Baru je tengahari tadi I was grumbling sebab panas sangat KL nih and envied mon cher sebab kat Taiping tengah hujan. and now dah hujan, but still I feel 'lost' and blur.. boringnyeeeeeeeeeee....

Adoihhh..what is wrong with me..?

Morning-wake up. Listened to Barry Manilow pieces while kemas bilik. Then, hantar keta for servis - groceries - head back home.

Cook lunch with Ma in 30 minutes - lunch.

Then, chatted with my sis for 4 minutes - and mon cher for an hour.

End of story. Boring kan?

You know what? I feel like screaming. I don't know what I need. And i don't know what to do. I tried baca news, and a few books just now..but it ain't working. Should I go out and get some air? huhhh.. Hujan la pulak..plus..I already went out pagi tadi pegi beli chipsmore...

Hahh..another problem with the chipsmore. I think there will be a monster again if somebody didn't stop me from buying that cookies! And i know what the hell is going on here. I realise sejak dua menjak nih I kind of gettin' over-indulged' in food - and don't know where are all my diet routine had gone!

I've been consuming that 'Scott's Emulsion' for a week now and that is the sinful thing that make me eat more and mooooooooooooore sinful food! OH NO... i get starved in no time and watching myself in the mirror is truly NOT a good sign.

My only hope - is this holy Ramadhan.

I got all the plans trapped in my brain. What is happening to me nih? Somebody please help!

Intann : Where is INTANN? somebody please wake her up!

The attack...

It's been a week now since my last posting. And a lot happen along the way. Good things..bad things..huhh... and finally I got the chance to post again.

Errr..Who said I'm enjoying my holiday?

On monday, my day filled up with jalan2 with mon cher and hantar my sis back to her hostel. Having to carry the monitor up to her room on the 5th floor got me having breathing difficulties. And the next day was even worse. I went to KL Hospital for medical check-ups. Everything went smooth and easy, but my car suddenly rosak in the middle of Jalan Ampang. And I have to wait there for 3 hours (solid!). Don't imagine how I have to deal with those habuk jalan, asap and fumes. I was entirely exhausted, angry without points, tension and banyak lagilah- all at once.

And to add the matter worst, on my way home I was halted by police sebab langgar lampu merah. *damn it!

He preached me-panjang giler. Having to go thru a real bad day, I cuma stood still. Tak melawan nor smile whatsoever.

"Kalau saya saman ni..mau kena 200 tau tak?"

"Sayang sikit duit tu..kalau ada anak mau lepas duit susu tau tak..?"

I gave him the monotonous expression. Didn't angguk nor geleng. Lantak kau lah! But he didn't saman me. He he..

And by night, the attack went bad. Real bad. I can't breathe and wheezed all thru the night.

Wednesday- have to help Ma to cook for kenduri tomorrow night. My sis pun demam-so pegi pulak cyberjaya lagi sekali to fetch her. It was really tiring but I got myself 'well paid' that night sebab ada "Hell Freezes Over" reunion concert...! (* We'll talk about this later huh!? Really interesting..!)

Having to deal with asthma is rough. Believe me. And please.. do not make fun of it. For me it's like dealing with death. When the attack went acute and uncontrollable, I can't hardly speak. My hands trembles and my voice drowns. If i struggle to speak or do something, I will end up vomitting. I have to be separated from other people sebab i will use no air-conds or fans at all. Hahhh..time tu semua orang dah pening sebab panas, but I'm the one with 2-3 layers or shirts..and extra sweater lagi! hah ha...

Thursday-kenduri. Penat sangat! I have to use nebulizer quite often sebab the attack went crazy sebab I didn't stop moving. But who else nak buat semua kerja?

Friday-hahh..baru ok..but still have lots of cleanings to do and dishes to wash.

This time, the attack memang teruk. Sampaikan at some point, I went thinking.. "Is this my last chance to breathe?" who knows which one will be the last one...?

God, I was really worried.. but thank God too.. right now I'm feelin' OK.. not yet recover, tapi OK laa... can breathe smoothly now..

Intann : Take good care of yourself guys.. have a good heart and be happy!

Bye petite office..

So..

This will be my last posting from this petite office.

No more jalan-jalan during work.

No more tensen with the boss.

No more lari balik at 5 o'clock..(suppose to be 5.30!) Hahahhaha..

No more chattin' and free lunch from mr khor..

No more surfing on the internet 24-7 ..when he's out to china!

No more.

Although I can't wait to get out from here, still, it's something to remember. Friends.. (all chinese! Can't you believe it?) Mr khor, mr yap, mr richard, mr kah yew..treedson, allan, karen, hung the PC master..Old and young, they all helped me a lot.

And of course, tonnes of stories to giggled and to ponder over when I'm not here...(isk..isk..)

Intann : Macam dapat anugerah la pulak..hahahahhahahha... bye petite office! Remember me!