How do I tell them..?

It's been a real rough week.

I was down with fever, flu and asthma. Pills and puffs did not work as they are suppose to. The days end with cold and cruel nights. My coughings irritate people surrounding me; obviously. Coming along with it, I can't walk well. My left knee seemed unable to hold my weight any longer. The pain stings tremendously whenever I want to stand or stretch my legs. But my heart suffered the most. Mon cher cynically accused me for not trying to get the correct medication.

How I wish he'd understand.

How I wish for a soothing calming words from him..

** Sigh**

God, how do I tell them?

How do I tell them that I did not ask for whatever tests that i'm having right now.
How do I let them know that i need their support.. not their judgement.

For right now, I am ashamed for things that I presume people would say about me.
Making excuses.


God, I felt like dying. Please tell them..
please tell them that I never wanted things to be this way.